|el amor es todo|

redirecting..

2005-03-26T00:45:00.000+08:00

i've moved to:

fizhasan.blogspot

sorry for the inconvinience (if any)

heheheh...

it has been a long time..

2005-02-13T10:14:00.000+08:00

assalamualaykum..

i just realized that i didn't even post an entry in january..

as if i was damn busy, aight?hehe..

was not, actually..but it's a matter of ideas to write..

the past month i felt as if my mind was numb, didn't have any clue of what to blog.

no, i had some things to share, but expressing it in my blog seemed like the toughest job at that time.

furthermore, i didn't think it matters to anyone at all.

it's depressing.

why can't i write well??

why can't i express my thoughts flawlessly like everyone does?

am i not good in english?*sigh*

anyhoo, i'm betting bored of this blog already.

maybe if my brain works better after this, i might come up with a new bolg.

more personalized one hopefully.

until then, i just have to continue writing in this blog.

take care, guys!

{sorry, for this lame entry..}

HAPPY NEW HIJRI YEAR 1426!!

2005-02-10T20:48:00.000+08:00

hola!!!!!

2005-02-09T07:42:00.000+08:00

assalamualaykum y'all.

after a very lo-------ng break i finally come up with an entry for my oh-so-lame blog. am not going to update anything now. just thought of sharing something a VERY good friend of mine posted in his blog. 'tis an edited version though. revealing his identity is not important as to share his thoughts about things in life. as for the issue you're about to read, just take it as an honest opinion from a person. even though i agree with him 200%. hehehe..

have 'fun' reading!

"Life can be very simple - it depends on how you look at it. I was talking to my dad about a lot of stuff, as usual, and this analogy of Amoeba came up. This is a good one. That’s why I want to share it with you. Some people view this creature as simple because it has only one cell but some perceive it as complex since one thing does everything. So whether your life is complicated or simple, it’s literally up to you. One thing becomes a problem if you want it to be a problem. Interesting, isn’t it? One more perspective is added to my library.

And things are going just fine. I’m academically and financially OK. It’s all good. Mentally? Yeah, I think my mind is stable at the moment. Spiritually? I’m not the Judge. But I’m doing my best though. I hope I do. But I still sense some sort of emptiness inside regardless of how well things are going. Am I in need of a company? Is this the moment? Should I be looking for my mate? I’m sure that during this time of life people at my age would feel the urge to interact with members of the opposite sex. But seldom do we ask ourselves, where do we draw the line? Why do we have couples before marriage? Is this permissible in the eyes of the Almighty? I don’t have the answers to all these questions but the latter gives me the best reason not to. Honestly, I’m not a big fan. As a matter fact, I don’t believe in a relationship before marriage. Being married is the relationship right there. If you love and get to know each other before tying the knot, what is there to do after? To some degree, I am sure you will agree that the rate of divorce is up and this is due to unconventional mixing and relationship before the marriage. Before getting married, everything is beautiful and the birds are singing and the sun is shining. What happens after? The ugly side is unraveled and due to the fact that it is not balanced with the side before – the consideration for both to hang on is compromised. I’m not saying all too-early relationships end this way but some do. And I’m not saying I don’t have female friends though, because I would be totally clueless about them then. But what I’m saying is - be very careful about this institution. Protect your heritage, the new generation. We’re talking about our sons and daughters here. Don’t you want what’s best for them? Would you want your sons and daughters to mix around freely? I don’t think so. Think about it."

leaving..[not on a jet plane, though..]

2004-12-31T01:51:00.000+08:00

"All my bags are packed

I'm ready to go

I'm standing here outside your door

I hate to wake you up to say goodbye

But the dawn is breakin'

This early morn

The taxi's waitin'

He's blowin' his horn

Already I'm so lonesome I could cry

So kiss me and smile for me

Tell me that you'll wait for me

Hold me like you'll never let me go

Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane

Don't know when I'll be back again

Oh babe I hate to go"

assalamualaykum..

hey, you guys..

believe it or not, i'll start my duty as a teacher this 1 January 2005..

what a start!..[of a brand new year]..

heck, maybe it's for the better..

[mo money, mo money..thehehehe..]

eh, i haven't informed u guys where i'm gonna be posted, aight?

as i requested, i got Terengganu..and the district is [sadly] Setiu..

(ATTENTION SHAXU & SARR : Setiu is in Terengganu..=])

the school's is alright though..at least physically..

new school and great facilities..

with students only about 150..

whoaaaaa...feel like heaven..

but wallahuallam, haven't met the school's admin, fellow teachers etc..

hopefully i'll not have to endure the 'sufferings' i experienced during practical..

anyhoo, the school's name is SK SUNGAI LEREK..

wish me luck, guys..[really need it..]

so, i'm going to tganu tomorrow..

will be staying @my aunt's first before renting my own place..

+sigh+

this is it..finally the moment has come..

hopefully i can bear it..

wassalam~

off to kuale terengganu- for real!

2004-12-18T13:59:00.000+08:00

assalamualykum..

due to heavy flood in kelantan last week, i've postponed my visit to kuale..

thank god, Kutan survived the flood..

anyhoo, i'm off to kuale this evening..

with my sis n bro in-law n nephews..

be back next weekend, insyaAllah..

so, adios..

take care, y'all...

wassalam~~

PostScript:-mache, i'll send u the song later, ok?

C.R.A.Z.Y

2004-12-13T02:15:00.000+08:00

[performed by Javier]

Kind of like a summer's breeze,

you do exactly as you please,

drop a brother to his knees just for fun.

I think it was the first of May,

girl I can't forget the day,

right then and there I knew you were the one.

Do you think that possibly, you could spend your life with me,

cuz girl this love is growing, and it's hotter than the sun.

I get a little bit crazy baby,

everytime you call my name

my heart beats a little bit faster, after,

you are in my arms again.

You try to fight it, don't even try to hide it,

emotions falling down like the rain,

I can't find the words to explain it, ain't it,

crazy how i fall,

everytime you call my name.

It's kind of like a work of art,

you shot an arrow through my heart,

even though we're worlds apart I can't deny,

it feels like your apart of me ,the finish and the start of me,

girl you are the heart of me,

and that's no lie,

did I mention that I love you so,

and I just want the world to know,

if I could you know I would

write your name across the sky

Crazy, crazy...

Everytime that your close to me,

I lose control of my sanity,

everynight, everyday, every word and you say,

girl do you know you put a spell on me.

Crazy,

Everytime you call my name,

I don't know what to do,

I'm so in love with you.

+blank+

2004-12-12T23:15:00.000+08:00

assalamualaykum..

just finished downloading 'crazy' by javier..

been looking for this song for ages..

u guys should listen to this song..

especially whenever you miss your special someone..

[mushy-mushy..yuckss..]

wut else?..hmm.. let's see..

my holiday's finishing..

meaning in a couple of weeks i'll be posted to a school..

scary isn't it? i'm actually gonna be a teacher.. :

neway,my bro called and told me dat k.linda's 5 week pregnant..
meaning next eid i'll have 5 'anak sedara' to be given duit raya..

*sigh*

anyhoo..,tomorrow i'm going to kuale terengganu..
lepak @my sis' for a few days..

babysitting lil' haziq n his bro hasif..
so, won't be able to blog coz there's no internet connection @my sis'..

take care, guys....

wassalam~~

finally, a post!!!!

2004-12-10T01:10:00.000+08:00

assalamualaykum..
sorry for not blogging for ages..
been busy with nephews lately..
but, they're back to kuale already..
somehow, i really miss their presence..
i even shed a tear when i was talking to lil' hasif hilman on d phone..
god, i miss 'em..
btw, if u guys happened to be visiting this page,
can i ask for your help?
i'm trying to see whether you guys can hear the song that should be playing in this blog..
kindly look for this realplayer thingy on your left hand side:

if you can hear the song then it's fine..

meaning it's working perfectly and as i wanted it to be..

but, if u can't, do try pressing the lil' "play" button on it..

[it's the first round button..it's so tiny,mind u..]

press/click it, and see if the thing works after that..

but if it comes to no avail, then just forget it..

maybe i'm just too dumb with these html thingies..

adios, chicas!! love u so much!!

take good care as always..

wassalam..

postscript: IF u can hear the song, do enjoy it.. :)

2004-11-21T01:04:00.000+08:00

jasara..ask imran to see this pic..+LOL+ [kurus sket x??haha]

waiting for my groom..z****..+LOL+ [dream on, fizzy!!]

eid-ul-fitr..alhamdulillah,let's celebrate it with syukur.

2004-11-04T03:55:00.000+08:00

[am listening to mamat's ku pohon restu ayah & ibu *repeatedly*]

assalamualaykum..

tonite i'm in a raya mood..sorry if this raya mood i'm having is sensitive to some..

actually it started earlier today when i went out with aboon..

our girls' day out turned out to be a raya window shopping (not quite window, as we end up with a pair of vincci's sandals each.)

anyhow, reading mache's entry for today made my heart sank..

for me, eid-ul-fitr is one of the special days when we can get together especially with our family members..

and as for me, raya is the best time for small gatherings with old frens, dearest frens..

(namely Kelantanese, be it TKCian or Koleqian..or SASian..+LOL+)

i may sound a lil bit emotional here, but 'tis my sincere n humble opinion..

we must cherish this gift from Allah..

well, at least in my case i still can celebrate raya with my family n frens(insyaAllah), but what about our frens abroad?what if we have to be in their shoes?

at least we still get to have salam raya, duit raya =) etc..what about them?

plz don't misunderstand me just yet, as i'm not saying celebrating raya abroad is no fun, but i think the feeling is a bit different..don't u think?? :

and i'm not saying that raya is the ONLY time to ask for forgiveness or meet our family members and frens, but at least eid-ul-fitr is special..

so mache, do come back for raya ekk?! hihihihihi..maybe we can get fQrl to be our 'honorable' chauffer to jasara's house @bachok this year..+LOL+

so, frens...eid mubarak..eid mubarak..eid mubarak..

let's enjoy these last few days of Ramadhan..

{z*d, how r u doing?:}

i'm back!!!!

2004-11-01T01:29:00.000+08:00

[finished my TESL course(diploma),hopefully with flying colors]

assalamualaykum warahmatullah..

praise be to ALLAH for allowing me to write in this blog again..

as i've written above, my course @MPIK has ended..

academic-wise, i think i did well..my enthusiasm in English helps..

practicum-wise, i don't really know what to say coz teaching is so not my forte..

above all, thank Allah for all the things that He has given me..

at least i know where i'm heading from now on...

that's the latest news in my life..at least for now..

so, Mache..sorry for not posting any blogs for the past few months.

and shambie, and shaXu..sorry y'all..

i've been extra busy with practicum + the school's IT lab was being renovated at that time..

anyway, it's RAMADHAN already..and eid-ul-fitr is on the way..

Ma has prepared 3 pairs of kurungs for me and Yong texted me today n sed she wants to give me and Adik 'kasut raya'.. *yay*..[felt like a kid all of sudden..]

maybe it's my rezeki..again, Alhamdulillah.. :D

right now i'm busy with preparation for Abe's kenduri kahwin..['bekwoh' in our dialect]

fyi, Abe got married last September to K.Linda..

they came back yesterday and i couldn't be happier seeing my only bro's so happy..

[judging from his tummy, i think Abah's is wayyyy flatter..] +LOL+

so frens, whoever can make it, 7th Syawal / 20th November @my house,ok??..

think i've to stop..sahur time in a couple of hours from now..

so hope this blog will be a regular visit to the few of you out there..

and hope i can keep on blogging, regularly, from now on..theheheeh..

wassalam.

{i miss 8tv,i miss z*d}

they are the apples of my eyes!! ^..blessed..^

2004-10-31T13:25:00.000+08:00

fatimah naquiyah hamdan and

muhammad hasif hilman mohd imran

muhammad haziq husaini mohd imran

so many things to tell, so little time left..

2004-08-29T01:45:00.000+08:00

[going back to cheras at 9am approx.]

assalamualaykum to those who have been visiting my weblog..

[yes,those few of you..]

first of all, i'd like to apologize for the 'silence'..

it's been more than a month i think..

[yes, fQrl..i HAVE been busy..with my practical n all..]..so, do excuse me..

so many things to tell??

yeah..i've got like tonnes of stories to tell, but the details i'll post 'em later..

just updating some major issues in my life..thehehhehe..

[as if i'm some kind of THE most important person on earth?..]

well, MY PRECIOUS one has gone back to school last week..

i mean to his uni in US..

SADLY i wasn't able to talk to him on the phone the night before he left..

[his flight was at @9.50am]

why?????????????? becoz of my careless self, i thot he was leaving on the 19aug!!

so when i called his mobile on the 18th[after isya'] his mom picked up d phone n told me the breaking news.

{his flight was on the 18th of aug 2004, 9.50am}

i was dumbstrucked and speechless.

his mom had to repeat asking who i was becoz my mind was floating..

[sorry mom-in-law!hhehe..]

when i checked his msgs after that, i realized then that it was my mistake..

so, what's left for me to do??

I CRIED.

to ease the pain i called up fQrl and let it all out @him..

wait, let me rephrase..

to ease the pain i called up fQrl and SHOUT it all out @him..

he's used to it..that's not the first time i've done that to him..

so, he had to lend me his ears to listen to my shouts.. :D

[thanks, buddy..]

maya n shazu were also shocked when i called them, crying my heart out..

thanks, girls, u r the best.. thanks for being around!! :

have i written earlier [in the previous post(s)] that skool's sux??

hmm...now it's getting worse!!

the atmosphere in d staff room was not 'homely' anymore..

some of the teachers had showed their true selves..

[which is 'anti-practicum teachers']

felt like crying when i had to endure the pressure given by the teachers..

i really can't tolerate when they 'torture' my emotions..

they've changed my perception n my good impression towards them...

they suck.

enuff said.

i wish i can write some more, but had to get some sleep..it's already 4.16am..[msia time]

shcool holiday's finally over and i had to go back to cheras..

grrrrrrr...i wish i can have more time to spend with haziq husaini..

[my sis k.yong gave birth to a healthy baby boy on 13th aug..alhamdulillah..]

so, take care y'all!

life's a pitch

2004-07-13T10:22:00.000+08:00

my one and only brother's coming back from canberra tonight..
sadly i can't go to KLIA to see him as he will only arrive there @7pm approx..
i miss him dearly.. :(
insyaALLAH i'm going home on the 17th..[and miss Malaysian Idol]
Ma's gonna make a kenduri doa selamat for Abe..
shaxu, if u r reading this, don't watch King Arthur yet,WAIT FOR ME!!
yanie, gimme a call when u r in KL ok..
i'm going back maybe on d 16th..
n will b back on d 18th..
lastly..school's starting to suck!

maya,last thursday was HIS bday..i called him in d morn.. hehe..i was d first one to wish him..:)

@the school

2004-07-01T11:49:00.000+08:00

salamss..

just realised dat this skool has a computer lab with internet connection..heheheh..meaning i get to blog everyday.. can i?? but at least the option's there..anyway today we gonna have another kenduri @skool..teachers only..yesterday we had "nasi ambang" for lunch and day b4 salted fish curry n SUP TULANG!!! yumm yumm.. [yes, muhammad fqrl!!..i know what's in ur head...->"ni pegi ngajar ke makan???"]hahah..no lah, it's just we had to rearrange the library n redecorate it after skool..so, in return the headmaster prepares us lunch everyday..

btw,muhammad..in the previous post i wasn't trying to "kutuk" my students..let's take it as me sharing my experience with all of u.. so that, in the future, when u have children of your own, u make sure they know english words..not their own creation of words..but, i'm thankful with my students..tho they are very hard to control, but at least they understand what i teach them..

signing off..adios amigas!!

hola amigas!!!

2004-06-29T21:18:00.000+08:00

bismillahirrahmanirrahim..

..felt like ages since i last posted an entry..huhuhu..
i miss late nite chats with fQrl n mache.. =(
i miss ma's cooking..i miss naquiyah's cry..whoaaaa!!!!

anyhow, i've started my practical last week..
SK bdr tasek selatan students really gonna drive me MAD!!!!
most of the students are below average..
hence, teaching them is a bit challenging..
ok, just imagine this situation my friend had to endure during her lesson..
a year 3 class was given a word--> "AFTERNOON"..
then,they were asked to form new words using the letters in that particular word..
the first two r simple of course.. after n noon..right??
fyi, this activity was done in groups..so they could discuss about d activity with the group members..
to my friend's relief,they could come up with words that they r familiar with..
n that should b ok..
except for one group..
i couldn't help myself but to laugh when i looked at that group's list of words..

-after
-noon
-FTERNOON [they just omit d letter 'a'!]
-TENOON [tenun songket???]
-RENOON [?????]
-FRENON [wut the ....??]
-FRENOON [speechless...]

et cetera..et cetera..[i can't recall all of them..but u should get d picture right??]
LOL..i pity my fren coz she had to suffer 'severe' stomach ache due to exessive laugh!!..
thank god my class did ok..[i did d same activity..]
and they managed to come up with almost 40 words..phewwww...
anyway, the teachers there r ok.. i mean they r all very warm towards us..
and we don't feel like strangers there...
[so happen i was given a place in d staff room right next to the MOST handsome teacher in d skool!!!!...was i lucky??heheh...]
he's married, with 2 kids..[gonna b 3 soon]haha..

ok..enuff about my teaching practicum..
but to tell u d truth i can't talk about anything else now coz for the moment, my life is all about practical ..
and that's all i can think of at the moment..
nothing fancier to write...

i'm looking forward to co2000's gathering @PD this 31st july tho..
i hope i can make it coz i heard rumors [in SKBTS's staff room] that we'll b having sport's day on the same day..
so, i'm not sure whether i can join my dearest frens catching up with each other..
or in simpler form:- GOSSIPPING!!!
nways, if any of u co2000 read this blog n u guys wanna book a place @PD, gimme a call so that i can arrange/settle our accommodation there..insyaAllah..

boring???dull???yup...maybe..

off to cheras..

2004-06-18T15:58:00.000+08:00

[while downloading Muse n Saliva's songs..]

dear friends.. tonight i'm going back to cheras..
finally the sem break has come to an end...what do i feel right now?

-happy, coz finally the boredom i'm suffering will subside..
-sad, coz my condo in cheras doesn't have internet connection..so,no more daily blogging after this..=(
-scared, coz on MONDAY i'll start my practical..

yup, i'm going off to Sek.Keb.Bandar Tasik Selatan for my second n last practical [or in the correct term-->Teaching Practice(TP)].. this time, besides my major (English language) and my minor (Moral) i've to teach Maths!!..though it's one of my electives, but i hate Maths!!..[sorry Encik Ahmad.. =(] actually i asked for Science but maybe it's d school's request.. hope i'll survive tho..maybe teaching maths is not that bad.. nway, my TP will last for about 4 months..hopefully the students are all well behaved..like d previous school i went for TP..

just now i was with hasmah @msn..she repeatedly asked me when i'm going/coming to NZ..[dearest hasmah..only God knows how much i wanted to further my studies there!!] she's @otago now..i've always wanted to study in NZ..i dunno y, but somehow NZ attracts me..in wut way i really can't tell..but, mayb it's not my luck or rezeki to go abroad..anyway,Otago has TESL course n once had been my college's twinning univ for that particular course..but d twinning prog has ended,and plus,it's a bit hard to apply for it coz i'm now stuck with d Ministry of Education.. =(

hmmm..what else to write???i guess that's all for now..have to pack my stuff..

untitled

2004-06-17T03:11:00.000+08:00

another piece of writing for you, my dear
how I wish you are able to comprehend
my adoration and admiration for you is ceaseless
and it is an honest affection I’m feeling
deep down inside of me

zoom into my heart and you’ll know what’s within
implicit love for you, that’s for sure
doubt not what I’ve said, my love
none of them is made-up, or untrue
i do love you; and adore you, with all my heart

-fizz++d May 13th 2004 [5:22 PM]

..dear Lord, i need Your strength!

of HTML, Euro2004, FormulaOne & TheNakedChef..

2004-06-16T01:54:00.000+08:00

[while listening to Pop Latino station]

spent almost an hour trying to put the picture as it is now..[all thanks to shambie]..thehehe..guess i'm bad with HTML thingy..it's just not my field!..but, 've succeeded tho..so, a round of applause for me self..heheh..[pathetic?]

it's Euro2004 fever now..and abah has been trying real hard to stay up n watch d matches..but to no avail..he couldn't last even for only half an hour!..poor abah..must've been really tired working during d day..and babysitting lil' naquiyah.. as for me, football/soccer doesn't attract me n'more..liverpool and portugal are still my fav teams, but this sport ain't no.1 in d list anymore..

why??coz Formula One es el número uno!!so glad schumi didn't dissapoint me in d last canadian race..out of 7 races, he had won 6..too bad he had an accident in monte carlo, monaco. if not he would've swiped the podiums clean with his victory! but another bad news for his brother ralf tho..after the incident in european grand prix [with team-mate Juan Pablo Montoya], his 2nd place victory was snatched away due to some technical prob..[i think bmw-williams is suffering from bad omen..hhehe.. the incidents are just neverending..] (me can't wait for 20th june's indianapolis grand prix!!) INDIANAPOLIS, fQrl???haha..

btw, i've added jamie oliver's blog/diary in my links..if u r a fan of his, do visit his page..ermmm..not familiar???heheh.. jamie is The Naked Chef!..my fav chef,if only i have half of his talent in cooking!!..and i envy his wife!!..fyi, The Naked Chef is my fav show..y? i like his style of cooking, very simple yet the food end up looking so damn delicious.. i like his brit accent..[can't help it, he's brit!]..has a short tongue tho..so, it's a bit challenging to figure out what he's actually talking about..hehe..

another mind-numbing entry i might say..

Susurro Su Nombre..

2004-06-14T10:42:00.000+08:00

(i whisper your name)

I dream of you when I’m sleeping
I remember your words when I’m thinking
I look for you when I’m on the Net, chatting
And I whisper your name every day and night

I see your face everywhere I go
I hear your voice whenever I turn on the radio
I feel your presence when I stand by the window
And I whisper your name every day and night

I do all these things to keep you close to me
I know people will say I’m crazy
I ignore what they think of me
And I whisper your name every day and night

As much as I wanted you to know about the things I’ve done
A part of me still hesitates to let you know
How much I love and adore you
Even from afar

Hence I can do nothing but pray for the day to come
So in the meantime I’ll do what I do best
Whisper your name time and again
Every day and every night

-fizz**d, 8th May 2004. [1:49 AM]

..i cracked my head to finish up this poem..have to admit that i'm not as good as fQrl when it comes to writing..nway, 'tis a sincere one 'spashly' for one special person..

Singing Contest..anyone??!

2004-06-13T00:23:00.000+08:00

I promised mache I’d update my blog everyday but, so sorry dear…I’m no ‘daily’ writer either..hehe.. anyway here I am now, making the readers bored with my writing..huhu..

I’ve watched the Malaysian Idol @ tv3 this afternoon.. [being in kelantan at this very moment, 8tv’s not an option..] boy..i was so shocked to see the contestants!! I must admit that some of them are talented, but mostly aren’t!!!! I quote Paul Moss’ comment to a contestant “have you heard yourself singing??!!”..haha..damn sarcastic!! reminds me of american idol’s Simon Cowell..

The point here is malaysia now under the “reality TV” attack!! [or should we say “singing contests”??] To name a few, now we have:-
1. Malaysian Idol
2. Who Will Win
3. Akademi Fantasia 2
4. Audition
5. Bintang RTM [can it b considered as a “reality TV"?]

Have to admit though that’s the most ‘appropriate’ with our culture..i'm referring to singing..[i mean rather than average joe, queer eye, or perfect match etc..]..but too many can be too boring don’t u think? Plus, how many singers can we afford to like or idolise? If they can sing so well, then that can be accepted.. but look at Akademi Fantasia’s “graduates”..can they ALL sing???

I know i’m writing this for no reason. Coz I can’t change things, right?? J but, just wanna let out my opinion, what i feel right now...i’m sick of this kinda things... anyhow, looking at the +ve side of it, this kinda program shows that Malaysians are capable of having their own ideas.. but it’s not so originally generated, i guess.. i sure hope that Malaysian Idol can be as good as American Idol.. and we, the Malaysians can be clever enough to choose a person that really deserves to be called an IDOL.. [i smell patriotism here..thehehe...]

do u think malaysians would be brave enough to pick a person like ruben studdard or fantasia barrino as their idol?? looks DOES matter for malaysians, don't u think? hehehehe..

and the reason is you..

2004-06-11T02:53:00.000+08:00

a 1-hour call from japan just now really makes me crazy..
help me God..i really want to get rid of him..out of my mind..for good.
but the timing was so damn "perfect"..
why must he call when all i wanna do is to forget him?
why must he call when his voice is the last thing i wanna hear?
why must he call when everything seems so right, without the memory of his existance?
why must he call when at the end, we end up arguing?
why must he call me in the first place????

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you -The Reason, Hoobastank

my outsides look cool, my insides are blue..

2004-06-10T01:09:00.000+08:00

first of all,a bit of introduction is appropriate..right?!

niki is actually my kitty's name.. was ..niki was the one n only pet i've ever had..i'm not an animal lover to be frank, but with niki somehow there was a 'chemistry'..i can still remember his smell after i bathed him..[i'd rather refer niki as 'him' than 'it']..anyhow, the chemistry only lasted for a couple of weeks..he was gone and i bet he's dead by now..

deez is someone v.special to me..an inspiration..that noun suits him.. he inspires me in his own kind of way..the way he talks,how he'd react over certain issues, his caringness and kindness..all of that makes him special to me..though, this feeling i'm having is out of his knowledge..:( there's a saying in Malay and i quote, "bertepuk sebelah tangan, tak berbunyi." i guess, that is the situation now..huhuhu..

hence, my real name's not niki..:) but whatever it is, i'm the same person,in and out. i can't really tell the purpose of me creating this blog..so happen that i already have one at myspace.com..but, heck! I LOVE WRITING!!..especially when i'm in the mood to do so..:)[like i am at this very moment]..so like, there goes my introduction..or should i say my explanation of the meaning of my nick?heheh...whatever..

at the end of the day, i have myself to blame..-unpretty,TLC

first try???..

2004-06-09T02:49:00.000+08:00

..people has been using this stuff for ages yet i'm just starting.. got some motivation from very 'special' persons to be exact..i won't elaborate on that though.. but, still a lot of effort need to be done to beutify this page..

a mile begins with the first step right?:0